In life, you get hurt. You feel happy. You feel sad. And macam-macam lagi la.
But that’s the point of living right? Experiencing things, so that you can learn from it.
Just keep on moving. Dont give up. And just remember that all d things that happened were meant to be.
~ Be sTrOnG ~
I got a job yesterday but you know what? I wont work anyway. All this is because of my mum. She said she wont pick me up if I have to work night shift. Damn… I am all sooo excited to tell her when I arrived at the hostel & then bam… she shoot it all back to me. I’m soo damned pissed off.
Okay fine, you dont want to pick me up, fine…
I’m going to PD this Friday. I dont want to stay here in Melaka that’s full of NOTHING. Nothing for me at all. Better to stay with my cousin or my grandma.
Even thought I’m sooo the fucking sakit hati tahap gaban right now, I’m glad my boy is there for me. Standing right beside me to help me deal with this. (walaupun he’s jauh kat Shah Alam tu…) Gosh, I dont know how am I going to face all this if he’s not with me. Thank you my dear, you really really helped me in dealing with all this shit. Thank you, thank you shooo much…
I really miss him sooo much right now, and I’m really looking forward to see him this Sunday. Well, if he didn’t zoom off to Kelantan too soon anyway.
We went out for a date, finally…hehe…
Gosh…and I miss him sooo much already now…eventhough I’ve been talking to him on the phone a few hours ago. Am I in love…??? Perhaps… 
Malunye…
Oh my god…He’s constantly on my mind now…every hour, every minute, every second.
It’s been almost 8 months since I last met him in PAS last year. Itu pun terserempak dgn dia. What takes us so long to decide to see each other until last Sunday? Hmm…I guess because he’s such a shy guy, really shy I tell you. But he’s a damn good guy you know. One of the nicest guys I’ve ever known 
And he ain’t as big as the last time I saw him, dah a bit kurus la, hehe…and cute…and comel…and cool…and calm…and macam-macam lagi la. Just a plain simple nice guy. Oh my god…I miss him…
Seriously, I dont know where this relationship is heading to. Coz, like I told you, he’s such a shy guy. If I don’t ask him to go out with me this Thursday, I dont think that he will even ask me out last Sunday. He’s afraid I guess. And I think the main reason he asked me out last Sunday was because I a bit merajuk with him on Saturday 
Hmm…sometimes I always wonder what he thinks about me after our first date. Did he like me? Or did he… whatever la. Just always wondering because…entah, just always wondering about it. And a day after we dated each other he didn’t called or sms me. I can always call him or sms him but I got no credit. I missed him sooo badly…so I cried on my bed & fell asleep…poor me…
But now dah okay a bit coz I called him this evening… Telling him how much I missed him…
Alamak…dah jiwang-jiwang pulak ni…heheheh… Well, maybe I’m in love… 
I hope both of us can work on this. InsyaAllah…
People say that turning 21 is the beginning of a new phase in your life.
Really?
Hmmm…I dont feel any difference anyway. Maybe because my 21st birthday didn’t turn out the way that I expected, I guess. But never mind. Expectation sucks anyway. It can make you really frustrated. Me, frustated. But I’m used to it. Seriously. Shit things happened to me all the time, so kinda used to it. Age is just a number to me.
So, all I have to do is survive. What else…Just have to find ways to survive. Setakat ni okay jea. Next week my final exam will start. Haiz…sooo worried. Especially for PR subject. Tough because its theories oriented. I dont really get what the lecturer taught for the whole semester. Most of the time feel sleepy in the class =_=
As for the other subjects, kinda so-so la. Hopefully I can score this time. Just have to make sure I revise throughly and memorize apa yang patut for the exam le. Hmmm…I’m gonna miss Cik Shikin & En.Nizam, my Photo Comm. & Graphic Design lecturers. Both of them are sooo cool. Maybe because they are the young lecturer so can a bit satu kepala with us all. To both of you, please give me an ‘A’ le…really want A++ for both of your subjects le…I know I did good through the semester, so give me an ‘A’ k? Hehe…demand jea lebih =p
Miss my F6 friends soooo much…Most of them are very dear to me…miss you all my beloved friends. Don’t ever forget our memories together k…
